Wow! people ARE actually reading this!!! how heart-warming your responses are too, thanks so much! nice to know that there are really people out in the amorphous blob of internet world 
Yesterday i began researching different travel programs...i am finding it rather frustrating and unfulfilling though, any suggestions of some good volunteer/work abroad programs would be swell. i know ther are some scattered in amongst others questions and answers, but they really are scatterd!
What a funny species we are part of. I have been introduced to the bizarre ways of the 20-yr old BOY at work. i never would have believed that this demographic is the worst source of gossip if i had been told. but now, having worked with around 50 of them for the past 9 months, i have been introduced to this unlovely fact. my mind is blown away by the fact that they find my life intriguing enough to twist and spread around amongst co-workers (other 20yr old boys...and i say boys intentionally here).
Live and learn i guess. the worst part is that most of them are what i would consider friends...
Just increases my desire to get the hell out of this country and society, into one where i have an excuse to not understand the actions of others...different language and culture.
I really have a hard time understanding why there is so much drama in my life when all i want is complete and utter simplicity.
i would love to hear some stories of human kindness, if anyone is willing to share...clear my mind of how much i hate my species right now.